The past 10 years of my life have been filled with some extreme highs and lows, dysfunctional relationships with myself and others, a lot of broken promises and unrealized dreams. Another gifted child, a plethora of potential...wasting her days day dreaming, indulging, and getting lost in the beat of her own drum. This "other" world that I live in...I REALLY like it...but the dimensions have changed...I'm adapting organically. The universe is speaking to all of us and I have learned to listen to it and to my gut.
I roamed around the book store the other day with this romantic idea: I'd find the perfect book, with such an amazing story that would propel me forward and be the perfect introduction or beginning to the memoirs of my lower middle class, white girl angst: How Dramatic. I read the flap of every book whose cover or title caught my attention. Each time disappointed by the same rags to riches or riches to rags to riches (again) story. Those are all inspirational in theory...but why? Maybe the repetitive nature of a message promising a brighter tomorrow is all some people need to keep plugging along. I, for one, am tired of just plugging along. Even when faced with some of the most challenging experiences of my life all I can do is be thankful that my revelations have come from just 27 years of plugging, not 65, like my father or yours.
This emotional journey was jump started by my move to Texas: a foreign land. MY promise of a brighter tomorrow!
I'd like to start by thanking my mom and step dad for making this change possible...funding my move, my education and helping keep me on my feet...even a year and a half later!
It's been tough. Facing eviction: twice! Facing repossession: twice! There were times that I wondered what the hell am I doing HERE or ANYWHERE!? I'm intelligent, very capable of getting it together...yet I struggle, financially. Well, I am my father's daughter. I swear even my childhood piggy bank had a hole burned in the bottom!
Moving where you basically know no one, learning to navigate in a metroplex of over 6 million people, finding employment and friendship, I was not intimidated. After finding a job at an amazing restaurant filled with amazing people...lifelong friendships were developed. I learned so much from them all and I learned so much about myself. It's pretty incredible to transplant into another "world" and see just how different you are from others...both good and bad. There were things about myself that just screamed "FIX ME!" and I did. For the first time I genuinely wanted to change. I relaxed, started to breathe and really absorb life!
Some people come and go through your life and the ones that have come and gone (or stayed) have taught me so much about life. The lesson may have been learned the hard way but it was learned. The amazing food, music and conversations that were had and will continue to be had have really transformed me into this content soul. Priorities in life are simple: Food, Water, Shelter, and Happiness. Make up your mind to be happy, follow your heart and don't take those important people for granted. This is a journey that will never end...and this is just the beginning of mine. I invite you to join me...
